Just Be Yourself?

 Hello blogfam...hp y'all are gud. Was thinking of something and I wanted to share it with you guys. Okay so am here debating about what to wear for a dinner date...yh I hv a date and it's a first....so I hv to choose wisely. Like its a proper restaurant...not like nandos or smethin, so I hv to dress smartly, but wt does dressing smartly mean....like I cnt just wear t-shirt and jeans...okay I get it. I hate dressing up...aargh. I actually caused this predicament for myself...we could easily hv gone to watch a movie.

Like should I be sexy on the first date and show some cleavage..maybe cleavage is not a really gud idea..I want us to have a proper convo..I dnt want him to not be able to keep his eyes on my face. Or maybe go for the girl next door look....like just a safe option..all buttoned up but then I don't want him to think am a prude, or that am boring....Also maybe piling up the jewellery might not be a good idea, I dnt want him thinking I hv the money miss road syndrome ...also nt too many colours..dnt want to blind the boy...gosh..so many options

Anyways all this debating led me to call my friend and she just made it worse by uttering these words 'just be yourself'....huh..wt does tht mean? Like I hear that a lot and I actually use to tell people tht too but it's not easy. If I was to be myself...I would be having the first date in a cinema with me wearing a top and jeans....okay if I ws truly being myself...I wud be huddled under my blanket sleeping cos it's too cold to be goin on a date sef. If I decided to go on the date as myself...I would be in flats or my boots....no heels.

Like I would really like people to explain what, just be yourself means....I really don't get it. How many ppl cn truly be themselves...like you go on a first date with the person....a girl might not want to wear make up but she has to, just to keep up appearances. Or like a boy tht invites you to his place..if he really wants to be himself...he wud rather watch super sports or play FIFA and eat left over pizza.

So my question is what does be urself mean and cn u ever truly be yourself when you meet someone for the first time.

And with all this story of life...still dnt knw to wear...oh well. Hv a blessed week guys

When Sexy Becomes Embarrassing

 Hey guys....have you heard Niyola's Toh Bad song ...love tht song. Makes me think...anyways moving on... Something happened recently and I want to share with you my blogfam

So because I hv bin feeling down lately...my friends dragged me out to a club and this one was like a proper club. It was fun and I was enjoying myself...then I quickly went to the bar to get myself a drink...ws waiting for the drink wen I turned and saw a cute boy...so I decided to try and flirt...you knw  the way they do it in movies na....well didn't knw it was a recipe for disaster.

So I started smiling at the boy..u know batting my mascara elongated eyelashes...giving coy smiles and flinging my weave even tho I was practically eating hair cos it kept entering my mouth... When my drink finally came..I decided I would sashay away and then give one last look...as I was giving one last look....I didn't look forward...before I realized wt was happening...I was on the floor wit my drink all over me. What I didn't realize as I was 'sashaying away' was tht there was a bar stool in front of me. Suffice to say I didn't see the boy again.

And as I was reminiscing in my room over my ruined dress...I just realized I hv never had tht much success bin flirty or sexy...am jst too awkward for all tht. I cn remember when I was still with Mr S...I cud nt even achieve tht fantasy of wearing his shirt...he was too skinny and I was too fat. Or you know the one where we are playing and I decide to like climb on top of him...well tht didn't use to turn out well...cos in tryin to manouvere...I will either start breathing like a horse or I get a muscle pull...loool and  we wud be both lucky if I didnt end up farting mistakenly.

So with the little success I have had trying to be sexy...I hv given up and I have realized you don't have to be sexy to meet 'the one'...if he's truly the one, he would love and find your awkwardness sexy but I definitely give it to girls that can be sexy and all flirty...good on u...it's a skill I wish I had.

Hv a grt week...wishing you guys a blessed week.